Surrounded

19/04/2021 - Poem a Day Compilation



I am surrounded by the pressure

To be more than I am

And sometimes I don’t know

How I’m supposed to deal with that



The pressure isn’t from anywhere else

But inside my own mind

And I argue with myself endlessly

About what I should be doing



I wish I had the confidence

To achieve what I tell myself I should

Maybe one day I will

But today is not that day

Peculiar

07/04/2021 - Poem a Day Compilation



I’m peculiarly peculiar

A strange sort of soul

Wonderfully weird

And erratically eccentric



I’m up and down

And round about

Inside out

And back to front



I’m eager and willing

And avoid at all costs

Yes, no and maybe

All rolled into one



I’m sinner and saint

The good and the bad

The lover and hater

And entirely apathetic



I’m high and so low

Flat as a tack

Up and about

And down in the dumps



I’m full of confidence

Drowning in doubt

Creating and destroying

All in one breath



I’m your very best friend

Your absolute worst enemy

Your greatest fan

And ready to tear you down



I’m the ultimate human

Inexplicable alien

Familiar animal

And supernatural pixie



I’m the stories you read,

Late at night, under the covers

While you smile and cry

All by yourself



I’m the builder of my world

In all its curiousness,

Its absurdities abundant

And its style strange



I’m peculiarly peculiar

Atypical and abnormal

Odd, unconventional

And perfectly me

Reliance

02/02/2021 - Poem a Day Compilation



I don’t like reliance.

The dawning dread

Of people placing their trust

Upon my wee, small head.



The expectation placed

At my feet

That I will live up to

The task at hand.



I don’t like reliance.

The need to include

Other people in my plans

Because I lack something.



I like to do things

My own way

In my own time

Without compromise.



I don’t like reliance.

But I accept it

And live with it

Because I have to.

Better

29/10/2020 – Poem a Day Compilation



I am better today than I was yesterday

But not as good as I can be tomorrow.



I am better than all my past endeavours

But not as good as my future triumphs.



I am better than the sorrows I have felt

But not as good as the joys I will feel.



I am better than I could ever hope

But not as good as where I see myself.



I am better now than ever before

But not as good as I ever will be.

Waking Up

28/04/2020 - Iso Well-Being Compilation



What is this fog that has lifted from my eyes?

I have woken, and seen reality.



All my fears that I have carried with me

Are stretched out before me.



None slain by the harsh light of day.

Every wound only in my side.



The echoes of a thousand pages unread

Filling my ears with silence.



A condemnation by my own vanity

That I should be loved.



What fate worse than death is now here?

It is my friend, obscurity.



Swallowed by the void of human insecurity

Played out as bravado.



Connections lie tenuously across space and time

Waiting to be ripped apart.



It may be the most innocuous of comments,

Taken out of context.



Perhaps a joke played out too many times,

Its novelty worn thin.



A genuine offer rejected without thought

For a better, fleeting one.



A call for help unheard or ignored outright

Because it’s too much trouble.



Trust has been forsaken in this world.

Never to be rebuilt.



There lies a chasm between the façade

And what lies within.



The idea that these words carry weight

Breaks the heart in two.



Bring back that all-encompassing haze

Where I can hide.



Let me secrete myself somewhere safe

Beyond the terrible truth.



What worth there may be residing in me

Is a shallow pool, indeed.



Never topped up, it drains ever more,
Leaving but an empty shell.