Special

I thought I was special
But you proved me wrong.
You held me down,
Pushed me around,
Treated me as second best,
And I kept on coming,
Back for more and more,
Eager to see you shine
Hoping I might too.

I thought you were special
But you're like all the rest.
You want to ignore me
And you do,
Content knowing I'm there
Just in case,
But you don't call
Even though I think you might
One day, if ...

I thought you might need me
Or love me or want me.
I thought I might, who knows,
Be useful or some such.
I thought we were friends
You and I, together,
Against the world.
I thought I was special
But I'm not.