I'm empty and alone
Back how it used to be
How it was before you came
Before you captured me
You took away all my cares
All of them but one
I cared for you and only you
We had the best of fun
But I see you for who you are
Not who you wanted me to see
you used me like and old, worn rag
And tossed me aside with glee
I saw your tears, every one,
Crocodile tears at best
I thought you were something better
But you're not unlike the rest
I ebleiev you said you loved me
And I thought it true
You asked me to marry you
But it was a witches brew
You were the one wearing white
Over a heart of black
Pulled up on a golden steed
Plucked an apple from your sack
From that apple I took a bite
And fell into your world
Reality floated miles away
As I tumbled, twisted, twirled
But I must have knocked my head
For I saw the inner you
Reality came flooding back
And I didn't know what to do
You didn't seem so caring
So tender or even sweet
You filled me with an emotion deep
Which to hide was no mean feat
I couldn't stand to hear you talk
I couldn't stand a word
You became just like a vulture
Not a softly singing bird
Your talons, they attacked me
But nowhere could I hide
I needed to feel your kisses
Though you're thoughts I couldn't abide
Slowly I was pushed away
Because I saw the demon true
An empty shell of a man
For which my loathing grew
For though I longed to feel your touch
So tender at the start
I knew the time had come at last
For the two of us to part
Your anger and your fear
Your insecurity too
Brought the devil to your soul
And made a demon out of you
A reflection of your inner self
A mirror for your soul
That is what you craved inside
For me that was your goal
I see that you chocke, always,
Upon a bitter pill
And it will get the best of you
Even against your will
I will not feed your feelings
Or keep your demon satisfied
Not everyone is evil
Guess what, the devil lied!
Not everyone is like you
Nor would they want to be
I hoped I could release you
But only you can set you free
You can be so kind, I know,
but only when it suits
For the devil can simulate
From the mind it loots
It controls what you say and do
It tells you how to act
The fairytale becomes the truth
Fiction becomes fact
The fairytale is not so sweet
Nor is it so pure
This nightmare is as old as time
Though the method somewhat newer
But stories are for children
And you treated me as such
Now I am betrayed by words
And fearful of the touch
I hear the heart beat deep inside
Echoing in my chest
You keep a picture of it still
To pin upon your vest
A trophy from your conquest
That I can't deny
But though my heart is broken
I'll ask the question, why?
Why are we possessed
To break that which we touch?
Why do we shatter
That which we love so much?
The answer, it is simple
It's right before our eyes
We can forget the questions,
The who, wherfore and why's
It's not in the asking
Of questions without end
It's seeing all the answers
Which will help us all to mend
It's realising all the darkness
That is in us all today
It's evicting it from our heart
And sending it on its way
We must be above reproach
And not give in to sin
Be pure in our very soul
And let the goodness in
For when the darkness overcomes
We are lost, that is for sure
We stumble on our separate ways
Breaking that which we adore
We cannot see ahead
Blindfolded by the beast
Unaware of what is broken
not caring in the least
You'd do well to remember
How life was before
When your soul was pure
And loving not a chore
Stop counting up by sixes
Live one day at a time
Take stock of what you've done
Turning rhythm into rhyme
One day the drum will stop
Beating out your life
You will face the gates of hell
And then you'll be in strife
You'll meet the Inquisitor
And he'll sentence you to burn
Don't say I didn't warn you
You never were one to learn
Your mind always closed so tight
High fences, dogs do guard
Your eyes never showed your soul
For they were always barred
You took it all so personally
They insulted you the worst
I never quite knew who they were
But it was they whom you cursed
They always put you down
Treated you with contempt
Now you will teach them
Their attacks you must pre-empt
And I am now one of them
The one you held so dear
I am not what you thought
That's something that you fear
I was not the same as you
Wouldn't bow to your will
Wouldn't cower if I did you wrong
Wouldn't satisfy the thrill
That's what it was, you know
A thrill and nothing more
You wanted power over me
To mould me to my core
But I was made of tougher stuff
Stuff that would not bend
And if I thought ot might just help
My heart, to you, I'd lend
You thought I was too soft
Too willing to defend
But heart does not equate with soft
Just read the words I've penned
To have a heart is to have a soul
That loves all mankind
And all the world will love you back
It's a love that you can't find
To see a love so free
you must open up your eyes
Hear the sounds of the earth
The whispers and the cries
Hold the hand of your enemy
Sing their child to sleep
For an enemy, once forgotten,
Is a friend that you must keep
I've often thought about you
And the darkness that you carry
For when you let it love you
Then evil will you marry
No-one else will love you
You push them far away
Because they are different
That's the price you pay
I'd rather be alone
Then a slave to all your fear
Because, I know, I'd die inside
And that day would soon be near
It would be a quick and painful death
My sould gone for good
No light behind my eyes
A heart that's made of wood
I'd have been polite
And turned the perfect phrase
But i'd have been trapped
Like a mouse in a wooden maze
I'd rather be forgotten
Than remembered just for you
The reasons that I'd stay like that
Are something less than few
There's just one thing I regret
And that's to lose some friends
They were the best part of you
But any good thing ends
I feel I've been reborn
I can start life a-new
I can put you behind me
Like a winter morning's dew
The stars are now in my reach
The moon a step away
Maybe I won't get there now
But I know I will one day
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