All Too Sensible

Listen to the strings of my heart,
A quiet melody is being played -
So soft and soothing, so pure -
But it is the only thing I hear.

Your voice may break through
Into the melody to become one.
Your words would sound just as sweet
Even if they were so harsh.

Look closely, deeply, into my eyes;
Don't be surprised by what you see.
There is a light behind them
That shines through for you.

Your eyes burn into me -
They tell of a hidden passion
Deeper than either of us knows
And it spreads to reality like fire.

Feel my touch on your bare skin,
Delicately my fingers pass over you,
But even this small contact
Has a power that is uncontrollable.

Your hands are refused their release
By a society that you created.
You are locked up, behind a wall,
And you can't reach out to another.

Sensations overwhelm us if we let them
But fear will never let us be happy
And, if we are afraid of feeling for one,
We won't feel for anyone at all.

My Light

I never thought I could say the words
But as you're walking out the door tonight,
Your hair slicked back the way it always is,
I realise that you're walking out with my light.

We started out in a heaven we called home,
I was your angel and you were mine.
Our eyes sparkled when we caught glimpses
And we couldn't get enough of each other.

When we fought it was like cats and dogs,
Now it's degenerated into uncomfortable silences.
There's a pain in my chest because of you
And it's the only reminder of what we had.

I never thought I could say the words
But as you're walking out the door tonight,
Your coat of your shoulder the way it always is,
I realise that you're walking out with my light.

But now, my angel, you have spread your wings;
You want to fly away to another Garden of Eden.
You think the grass is greener on the other side,
Now that you've left the grass here is withered.

You were like a spring feeding the rivers of my life
But, when you shut that door, the last drop will go.
You've left me high and dry and no tears will ever fall
Because I can't feel if you've taken my heart.

I never thought I could say the words
But as you're walking out the door tonight,
Your shirt untucked the way it always is,
I realise that you're walking out with my light.

And now, with your bag packed and ready to go,
I know if I wait too long it will be too late.
When we started we never thought it would end like this.
There's only one thing I can do right now.

I put my hand on your shoulder one last time.
Your faded eyes light up one last time
But I'm choking on the words you want
And some things just weren't meant to be.

I never thought I could say the words
But as you're walking out the door tonight,
You're waiting for me to say the words,
I realise that you're walking out with my light.

Sweet Child of Mine

I held you in my arms, sweet child,
When you were just a babe.
Your eyes, they danced like fairy lights
And caused my heart to flutter.

You could never know, sweet child,
What the world held for you.
I made a promise then and there
That nothing would ever hurt you.

Some things just aren't meant, sweet child,
To turn out for the best.
I couldn't keep my promise to you,
I was the one who hurt you.

I gave you everything, sweet child,
That money could ever buy
But, right at this moment in time,
Money won't help mend a broken heart.

You should know by now, sweet child,
That I always loved you.
All I ask is that you love me
And forgive me now, when I ask.

I won't be there, sweet child,
To hear it when you say the words
I've hoped and prayed you will
Because I can't ever ask again.

You don't know, sweet child,
how much I wanted to stay.
It tore me up inside, night and day,
To see the pain I was causing.

Some day you will see, sweet child,
The truth of this situation.
I know you blame me for leaving you
But forgive me in my absence.

I always loved you, sweet child,
Whatever you might think now.
Don't let anyone tell you differently
Because it simply isn't true.

If it could be different, sweet child,
I would change it in a heartbeat.
I would give anything to hear your voice.
There's nothing I wouldn't do.

Tend to my memory, sweet child,
Don't let it fade away
For a person can live forever
If only in the hearts of others.

Now that I am gone, sweet child,
I can't protect you anymore.
Everyone dies and it's not my fault
But forgive me, sweet child of mine.

Demons

Monsters are alive and well,
Though mostly in my head.
Sometimes they escape outside
And creep around my bed.

There are big ones, and ugly,
That scare me out o' my wits.
They have big jaws and sharp teeth
To tear me all to bits.

Some are small and pestering
With eyes as red as fire.
They chase me through my nightmares
As if they never tire.

They live in the dark and cold
Where the sun never shines,
Sleep amongst the shadows deep,
Eat where the devil dines.

Never there was such foul beasts
That went searching for my soul.
These things of pure evil
With fur as black as coal.

Then I saw a splendid light,
I could not speak a word.
It shone from within my heart
And I flew just like a bird.

Over mountains, over seas,
Like an angel with her wings.
I was free from harm and threat,
Free from warlocks, elfins, kings.

There was not a care to find,
I could do most anything.
Swim in the deepest ocean,
Talk to the birds who sing.

Soon I came back down to earth
And found myself in bed.
For I had been asleep again,
That's is all that's to be said.

We are the Dying

Look at the world, what's happening, what's happening.
Look at the people and places and things.
These are the things which surround us, engulf us.
We are the dying, help us survive.

Time is continually escaping, escaping.
Forever in the past and present and future.
Treat us with pride and treat us with care.
We are the dying, help us survive.

We live in the forests, the forests, the forests.
We live in the forests and oceans and plains.
We are the rare, endangered and sought after.
We are the dying, help us survive.

On Something Not Yet Happened …

People will talk in hushed tones
Saying how dreadful it is
That we two should find happiness
In each others arms.

What they won’t understand

Is the pain and anguish in my heart
At the thought of losing you
And that is what’s wrong.

They don’t see the hundreds of others

Who have rejected me over the years
And the utter joy I now experience
When I look into your eyes.

There will be one or two who will ask outright

If we are sure about what we are doing,
More from personal experience of such situations
Than any desire to come between us.

If I could have one wish for the two of us

It would be for us to be happy together
And for the world to leave us in peace
From now until eternity.

Beware

Beware of those eyes that draw me in
Rejoice in that smile which lures me in
Employ every ounce of willpower to resist you

Never allow the faintest of touches
Deny every emotional response that emerges
Accept the inevitable knowledge of rejection

Neglect to mention the burning desire
Impart no indication of something lurking below
Somehow behave as if nothing has changed

Believe that if it’s meant to be it will be
Engage that self control which has kept me safe
Absorb the warmth of our friendship

Understand why the constraints exist

Tell myself there’s nothing there
Identify the method to keep me sane

Forget the twinkle in your eye
Upset the rhythm of the attraction
Love the person, hate the game

Unable to Express

I cannot seem to find
The words that I need
When I want to use them –
When you’re around.

I want to say you’re beautiful –

A transcendent light radiates
From your very soul
And shines through your eyes.

I want to say you’re wonderful –

A deity in human form

Sent to enrich my life
And steal my heart.

I want to say you’re humourous –

A wit of unknown proportions
Keeping me amused at every turn
And filling me with joy.

One day I will find my voice,

I just hope it’s not too late
And you haven’t disappeared
Like so many before.