Outcast

14/04/2021 - Poem a Day Compilation



I’ve never fitted in

Even as a child

I’ve walked my own path

And sung my own song



I didn’t get invited to parties

Or asked out on dates

I don’t go to staff functions

And I rarely go out



I hate the idea of small talk

It makes me nauseous to the core

Sending my anxiety sky high

And draining every ounce of energy



I don’t do well in crowds

With the press of people all around

Unrestrained and unpredictable

It’s all too much for me



Other people’s emotional needs

Are like a flood inside my mind

Their pain seeping into my pores

Like an invisible toxic wave



I’d rather hang out with your pet dog

Or curled up with your cats and birds

Than spend time in the company

Of the same person for all the day



It’s not that I don’t like people

They just drain me of my strength

Making it difficult to continue

With the rest of my life



I embrace my inner hermit

And just hope others understand

That when I’ve had enough of people

It’s not a personal slight



It has seen me painted as an outcast

Someone who doesn’t want to join in

But want and need are two different beasts

That often pull in opposing directions



I want to be the life of the party

I want to be little miss socialite

I want to be everyone’s best buddy

But I need to keep the world at bay