Rush

09/04/2021 - Poem a Day Compilation



Somethings don’t deserve your patience

They must be seized

– Like the day –

Taken in hand and moulded

Before the clay dries



        So, rush



Headlong into the snow

To make those angel wings



Onwards into battle

To take the enemy by surprise



And tumble head over heels

In love with life



        Rush, now



Before those legs grow weary

And cannot carry you

Over the hills and far away

To where daydreams escape

From minds lost to the notion

That life is for the living

Each night

21/03/2021 – Poem a Day Compilation



Each night

I look up

Out the window

At stars

And the moon

And the infinite black



I see

Lost civilizations

Forgotten people

Born and gone

Before our eyes

Without our knowing



The tremor

Of a planet

It’s heart

Spewing forth

Destroying itself

From the inside



The twinkle

In the distance

Of a world

Undisturbed

And at peace

For millennia

Sometimes, I Wonder

21/01/2021 – Poem a Day Compilation



Sometimes, I wonder

Not about the big things

But about the small,

The insignificant things

And whether they are,

In fact,

The most important things

In the world or,

At least,

My world.



Sometimes, it’s ok

That I didn’t save the world

Because I don’t think

I’d know how to do that

And, besides,

Maybe I am

Saving the world

One recycled bottle

Or saved litre of water

At a time.



Sometimes, I forget

That individuality

Doesn’t mean insignificance

When I can change

Myself,

My thoughts,

My actions,

My whole attitude

And make this world

A little better.



Sometimes, I am overwhelmed

By the hill I must climb

And the burden I carry

But, then,

Who else but me

Will bear my own troubles

For, if I cannot save myself,

How can I possibly

Expect the same from others

When they stumble.



Sometimes, I am strong

And there is nothing

I cannot accomplish,

No battle I can’t win

And no friend I can’t help

For simply being

An ear to listen,

A hand to hold,

A mind to understand –

Someone with whom to share.



Sometimes, I wonder

And it’s ok

That I forget

Or am overwhelmed

Because I am strong –



Because I am me.

The Change in Me

12/01/2021 –  Poem a Day Compilation



I thought, as I grew older,

I would change much more than I have

But I am still the same person now

As I was when I was sixteen.



I am still the insecure little girl

Who doubted her abilities

Yet always tried her best

Regardless of the result.



I am still that hopeless romantic

Who craved love and affection

But never seemed to find it

Or even knew where to look.



I am still that anxiety-ridden teen

Scared to face the world

For fear of anything and everything

And nothing at all.



The change in me is insignificant –

Now I see my insecurities,

The hopelessness, the anxiety –

But what good does the seeing do?



No matter how hard I try

The doubt, the desire and the fear

Stay with me like a second skin,

A part of me I cannot remove.

Death Everlasting

28/12/2020 – Poem a Day Compilation



When I die

Do not my body bury

For what good will it do

Six feet underground?



Take what you can

And gift it,

Allow someone to live

When I cannot.



Let my heart sing

In someone else’s chest

That they may love

And live again.

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Mood

08/12/2020 - Poem a Day Compilation



I’d like to escape from myself sometimes

When the sadness overwhelms me.

It’s always with me, deep inside

A sinking melancholy dragging me down.



I am forlorn and in despair,

There is nothing I can do

No saving grace to pull me through

And I must only survive this downheartedness.



I am not worth the time or effort

To repair my broken soul.

Just abandon me here,

Because I am not of any value.



It is laughable that I should be held

To be the best person for the job

Regardless of what the position is,

I will never meet the requirements.



I hate myself for feeling this way

But there’s no one to blame by myself,

Every day, I must atone for the wrong

That I have wrought every day prior.



I think about the world without me,

How much better that might be.

If I weren’t here to screw things up,

And no one would miss me anyhow.



I don’t want to go out to the movies,

Or read that book you recommended.

I don’t want to play football this year,

I just can’t be bothered anymore.



People say they’re trying to help

But they don’t stick around very long,

They get tired of me and leave,

Not that I blame them for that.



I haven’t slept in so long,

Not real sleep, anyway.

I lie awake at night, staring at the ceiling,

Wondering why I’m even here.



I don’t eat anymore.

Not unless I’m forced to.

The doctors say it’s unhealthy

But they don’t really care.



I just want to be left alone,

To stay in bed and not do anything,

I don’t want to move, or work,

Or talk to these people who say they’re friends.



Don’t talk to me right now,

I can’t focus on what you’re saying.

My mind is off, somewhere,

Anywhere but here.



No, I don’t know what I want to put on,

I don’t care what colour it is,

Why are you asking me to decide?

I don’t know what you want.



I stood at the top of the cliffs

I swallowed all the pills in the cabinet

I drove into a tree at high speed

But none of you will let me go.



The pain I feel is excoriating,

Every joint aches all the time.

I just want to be free from it all

And to not have the agony prolonged.



My bag is packed and under my bed,

Like it has been since I was twelve

I don’t want to be here

But you won’t let me leave this place.



Nothing I do is right,

I can’t live like this any more

The constant attempts and failures

Are eating away at my very soul.



You all have it so easy,

You breeze through every hurdle.

I hate what this world has made me

And I hate the world as well.



One day I will burn this place

And everything it contains.

Maybe it will take me, too,

And I will be at peace.

Waiting for Inspiration

17/11/2020 – Poem a Day Compilation



Do not wait for life to happen

When life is what we make it.



Be the person you dreamt of being

By reaching out and grabbing your dreams.



Sitting back and watching the world turn

Will not move you forward in this life.



Break through the fear of the unknown

Like an animal escaping from a cage.



Create the experiences you desire

And do that which brings you joy.



And if you find yourself adrift

Be inspired by what life throws at you.

Paranoia

10/09/2020 - Poem a Day Compilation



You wound me with your words,

They bite and scratch and claw,

The offend my sensibilities

And you do not offer to withdraw.



Though many may just let them slide,

You insult me with your remarks

That flow freely from your face

Without regard for the ire it sparks



I do not trust a word you say

And your actions betray your thoughts.

I have cracked the code you use,

I see through your ones and noughts.



You tell me you hold my secrets

But your eyes tell me you lie;

I hear my fears repeated back to me

And I wish for you to die.



Don’t you dare tell me I’m wrong

When I am nothing of the sort

Your criticism will not provoke me

When your arguments are fraught.



You say I’m overreacting

When I don’t take to your ugly declarations

But should my tears not flow freely

When you’ve turned against me whole nations.



You try to tear me down at each turn,

Spreading rumours like grist to the mill,

You want to destroy everything I have –

My art, my passion, my will.



You don’t want me to be happy,

Rather see me suffer your lies,

Treating me like a leper

Until there’s nothing around me but flies.



I always need to defend myself

When you hurl accusations at me

Or imply that something is all my fault

When it couldn’t possibly be.



You don’t listen to my explanations –

I repeat them ‘til I’m blue in the face –

But You tell me I’m wrong every time

When you know that’s not the case.



I don’t want to argue with you

But you won’t see things from my perspective.

You make me want to shake you

Until you aren’t as defective.



I yell, and I scream, and I shout,

And I punch holes in the lounge room wall

Because whatever I do isn’t good enough

And we must defer to your call.







But I don’t want to bend to your will,

I want to make decisions without compromise,

To take action based on my own choices

And for there to be no reprise.



I am the master of my own domain,

The king of my own castle.

You will not bring me undone

Or placate me with a shiny parcel



I cannot forgive the wrong you have done

And I will never forget them;

They haunt my every waking thought

And my dreams they do condemn.



They stain my opinion of you,

And scar every memory I hold

You damage me beyond all recognition

And leave me feeling cold.



I know you talk about me

When I am not in the room,

The whispers hidden behind hands

Are louder than a sonic boom.



I see all the deceit that you spread

When you think that I’m not around,

Fooling yourself that I don’t know

That your lies are not bound.







I’ve never liked the way you act,

Sneaking around like you’ve something to hide

And never giving me all the answers –

Even when I’ve caught you out, you’ve lied.



Your friends are not who they say they are –

They’re two faced and devious –

And I know you’ve told them my secrets

Going beyond mere mischievous.



I can’t trust anyone anymore,

All because of you.

I have no one to confide in

And you won’t get your due.



Once they hear your treacherous lies

They don’t believe a word I say.

But I will take my revenge

And you will rue the day.



I can’t be with anyone

In any romantic fashion.

They all leave me in the end

And I am bereft of passion.



They say I’m not the person

With whom they fell in love.

All I want is to find someone

Who fits me like a glove.



But that person isn’t real, you know,

Because you’ve turned them all away,

You take, you pinch, you steal from me,

But they’re just silly games you play.



It becomes harder to face the world outside

When danger lurks at every turn,

When people are against me

And want to see me burn.



I see their true intentions

But they hide their malevolence towards me.

They wear a mask of innocence

So the rest of the world won’t see.



My bosses will not promote me,

They keep me stuck in this dead-end job

It’s all designed to wear me down

So they can feed me to the ravenous mob.



They are afraid of my intellect,

That I will outshine them, every one.

Their small minds can’t see my vision

And they won’t stop ‘til I am done.



They listen in to my conversations,

They probably trace my calls.

Stealing my ideas and thoughts

My protest on deaf ears falls.



Each day they try to bring me down –

They conspire to see me fail.

Everyone is against me,

Their plot is beyond the pale.

They will not get the best of me.

They will not drag me down.

I see through their diversions.

I will wear the crown.

Life Didn’t Go as Planned

19/08/2020 - Poem a Day Compilation



Life never goes exactly to plan

And that’s okay.

Learning to accept that

Is a big part of being

In this crazy mixed up place

We call existence.



Friendships form and break down

Filled with love and heartache

Laughter and tears and loneliness

And all the other ups and downs

That go along with sharing this space

With other members of the human race



Games are won and lost

Trophies gather dust in boxes

And participation certificates

Lay discarded in forgotten draws

At parent’s houses until they pass

And you accidently rediscover them.



Jobs have their raises and promotions,

As well redundancies and resignations

And the call into the boss’ office

To be fired, for something so often

Completely beyond your control

And that knocks you for six.



One day we’ll look back

On all the events that have made us

Hoping that not too many have broken us

And maybe relive those monumental things

That tore our world into a million pieces

Or fell gloriously into place just for us.



Because one day we’ll run out of days,

We’ll use up all those days and months

And the years will be behind us,

And what we made of this miracle

Will define our entire universe

And how we made it through, unplanned.

A Decision in Time

05/05/2020 – Iso Well-Being Compilation



Today I might to decide to get a puppy.

Not just any puppy – A rescue puppy –

Not because I must but because

It exists within me to care.



Or maybe I’ll be a cat instead,

They seem so much more independent

And I wouldn’t have to take them for a walk,

Just make sure they don’t eat the bird.



Today I might decide to save those few dollars

That I would have spent on a takeaway

And put them in a piggy bank

Safe for a rainy day.



Or I might give it to the homeless guy

Who looks like he needs a hot meal

And, though it won’t buy much,

It’s more than he’s had all week.



Today I might decide to eat a salad for lunch

Because it’s time I looked after myself

And stopped over-indulging

On comfort foods and junk.



Or I might have the slice of cake

That was left over from my birthday

Because it’s not right to waste food

Especially when it’s so delicious.



Today I might decide to go for a run

To get the blood pumping though my veins,

Air flowing through my lungs,

And my muscles stronger than before.



Or I might sit on the couch under a blanket

And binge watch that latest TV show

That everyone’s raving about but of which

I don’t quite understand the premise.



Today I might decide to read a book

And get lost in its pages,

Captured by its characters and themes,

Transported to a different realm.



Or I might go to bed earlier than usual,

Get a full night’s sleep for once,

And hopefully wake up refreshed,

Not like I’ve been hit by a truck.



Today I might decide to get excited –

About what, I don’t know –

But I will approach it with enthusiasm

And overbrimming with the trill of it.



Or I might just plod through the day

Avoiding conflict and surprise,

Having a day where I simply exist

And don’t have to exert myself.



Today I might decide to follow my dreams

And change my career path,

Take on that role I know suits me

More than any other has done.



Or I might make the best of this job,

Creating the role I want for myself

From within the existing constraints

And blowing them to kingdom come.



Today I might decide to choose the right guy

To settle down with for the future

Who treats me as I should be treated

And accepts me, faults and all.



Or I might choose Mt Right Now,

Who makes me feel exponentially good

If but for a fleeting moment in time

And then disappears into the ether.



Today I might decide to catch up with friends

Who actually get me,

Who rejoice in my absurdity,

And who understand my weaknesses.



Or I might hang with new friends

Because then I can pretend to be someone

Infinitely different from who I am,

If only for a day.



Today I might decide to love myself

Because if I don’t, who will?

And I deserve to be loved

Just like everyone else.

Drowning

24/04/2020 Iso Well-Being Compilation



It feels like I’m drowning,

Sucked under by the current.

It’s interminably slow.



My eyes want to close

But I can’t let them.

I can’t sleep now.



I’m trying to breathe.

Trying to keep my head above water

When it would be so easy to let go.



There’s an ache all through me,

Like I’ve run a hundred marathons

Barefoot and without rest.



Even my heart aches:

A horrific, slow ache

That never leaves.



But while I’m clawing up

There’s little to hold on to.

I don’t know which way is up.



Instead of hearing my screams

They drown them out

With their own noise.



Instead of a helping hand

I’m being held down,

Held under.



Instead of being the calm,

They are the storm

And I weep.



I pray to an empty sky

For a lifeboat that won’t come

As wave after wave overwhelms me.



I cry as I go under,

Sob into the void,

Tasting the salt on my lips.



This dirty mask is no protection

Still I drown down here

And dream of what might have been.

The Hourglass

Tip the timer over
Let the sand run through
Watch as it trickles down
Into the once empty base

Use the time as best you can
Do not dilly-dally
Soon no grains will remain
And then where will you be?

When all the sand has fallen
And none remains above
The next generation will come
And turn it over again

But the same cannot be said
For the seconds of your life
As they trickle through your fingers
And flow over your thumbs

Colour the grains of sand
In all manner of vibrant hues
Make your world an artwork
Priceless in anyone's estimation

Carry your hourglass with you
Do not sit and watch it run
Merely touch it in your pocket
To remind yourself it's there